While I love making fan art and in particular angsty fan art of my favorite characters, I really feel the need to doodle or sketch the things I usually like. It's not that there's anything stopping me from creating original art, it's just that fan art allows me to express myself through my favorite characters and series. It's also a lot faster to create.
When I draw my favorite characters, it's a mixture of simply just liking something that appeals to me as well as expressing myself through fictional characters that I can relate to (In some way).
An issue with creating original art is that it can be a bit too personal--too emotional. Like how I express myself with fan art, I feel more transparent with original. It's not necessarily that I'm hiding who I am, it's just that I'm revealing more about myself. Besides, for some of you who know me in person/who I am, I'm the same person--you're just viewing a visual diary. However, I feel like telling a bit of it.
Fan art and original art are some of the many ways that I [cope] with my "angst" and [other internal struggles]. To give a bit of a self analysis shortcut, I don't actually try to make it a goal to draw-out or allude to relevant issues, I mostly draw, doodle, sketch, paint, etc images based on my personal experiences and current emotions. It helps me feel more at peace with myself even if only in the moment.
Perhaps my expressions are a result of youth--after all, aren't there other 20-something year-olds who cope in either similar or different forms with difficult emotions? Not to try to sound like a special-snowflake, if I could somehow transfer/receive the essence of the inner turmoils of my peers, the lack of communication and occasionally support makes me feel pretty isolated. After all, housing and producing so many morbid thoughts is incredibly unhealthy--that I recognize.
[Regardless of my personal seventh ring of Hell, my artistic expression brings about a sense of euphoria. It's a regenerative state--a state of cleanliness. Until I need to shed myself of more emotional baggage, creating original art can be difficult as well beneficial.]
Hopefully, when I have more free time, I can have the luxury of sitting down and creating more original art.